My Life…My Sea
How long…will this continue?
When will I have peace of mind?
My Mind
Statues have better odds and get more attention
I can remember buttoning my own shirt
Combing my hair by myself
Saying Grace
Giving Thanks
I still give thanks
No one can hear me
My hands brought together in prayer
Life
My Life
Now a spectator sport of monotony
By the way,
I perceive sound…hear everyone plainly
Every word…Every syllable
Sounded out e∙v∙e∙r s∙o s∙l∙o∙w∙l∙y
Like a jackass trying to get my vote
Shouting at me…doesn’t help
I am responding to you morons
Can you not see how happy I am?
I am drooling, just so that you’ll take the time to touch me again
And, for the love of God,
Would someone please throw away the sandpaper wash cloths!?
The window to my soul
Is no longer open…alive
Shuttered now
A blank stare is all I can offer
When I am pleased…When I feel good
I give you my Sunday Go to Meeting stare
And in return, you gift me with your worn out
Buckner impersonation, letting it go right through you
Blue has always been my favorite color
To your irritation, I choose it everyday
It is brings me joy
Every thought echoes in my memory
I know Mary had a little lamb
But, I can’t remember why
My mind wanders
Adrift in bewilderment
No longer staying by my side
I am not parched
I am trying to get your attention
I can’t drink thirty glasses of imaginary water
I am trying to get your attention
I am wearing my blue shirt
And…I am thirsty for life
My Life…My Sea
All those photos
I never finished sorting them
No one will know where they go
Or the names of relatives
Who know and enjoy the rest I seek
Friends
Parade by me as if I were already dead
I can hear, and no, you are not in my will
I miss the ocean breeze
Always cool to me
Comforting
Casting my line was an art
Artistically believing I might actually catch something
I know now….that when wearing my lucky shade-hat
I caught a boat-load of memories
Closing my eyes to this cruel twisted existence
A mind-movie loops
The sea, My Sea…calling to me…calling My Life
In each and every frame
I can walk…and cast
You can hear me
Singing songs
My Life…My Sea
Embracing me again
james
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